i thought he meant nothing to me..i made a mistake

i thought he meant nothing to me i guess i was wrong.my heart is breaking what have i done?my heart is a heart of pain it has never been able to love after him..i played with his emotions & left him torn what got into me?what was i thinking?he has someone now who loves him dearly but deep down inside i know he still cares about me.wouldn't it be wrong to destroy what he has now?!will it be another mistake?my actions were falsely justified by selfish proud thoughts-i thought i had so much potential ,i thought i could do better ,i had my own description of a man & love i was too proud.how was i to know that one selfish little mistake will come back to haunt me with every breath i take? they say to err is human to forgive is divine but why do the errs always have to be mine...

thoughts about love

love!!!what is the true meaning of this word that is often defiled ?does it truly exist?why do we use the word when we don't mean or believe in it?why is it the only thing that causes heartbreak?why does something said to be so good last for a short period of time?love makes you happy & it also makes you sad.it makes you laugh it also makes you cry.it makes you love life it makes you hate life.it gives life it takes life.it binds the world together it tears it apart..one would wonder if something that is both positive and negative is worth having.!should love be for a life time or should it be enjoyed for the brief hour of its duration?love is deceptive!!!!!!!