parasites

always looking to get from every avenue they can find with no thought of reciprocating .like a parasite they take from you...they are friends with u because of what they can get from you...they always mistake your being nice for stupidity ..i know what the y want ,i know where they have been,i know their kind!!!visiting me without invitation & taking from me without hesitation..moving from place to place searching for new hosts..they lack knowledge.... and so they perish for lack of this knowledge !!!,now you have left me because you feel i have nothing to give,you think i am patched & depleted...your wrong for i am not down or defeated..and not too long from now, you blood sucking tick you will be down on your knees..

i am black,i am beautiful,i am a woman &i am me....

Black is beautiful!!!black has different shades all of which radiates beauty...black has given color to the world...my shade is light,my shade is fair my shade emits beauty,elegance & purity....My life is sustained by the world of beauty which you will see where ever you rest your eyes, and this beauty is nature itself; it is the beginning of good things...it is me... demeaning words cant counter my belief not ever....i am beautifully and wonderfully made...so therefore i will carry myself with such divinity..my skin is so light brown complexioned,my eyes are of light brown confection ,with curves so round & sublime ....i have all anyone could ask for... i will not be put down!!not ever ..maybe with time the world will learn to embrace my perplexity... i am black ,i am beautiful ,i am a woman,i am me& i am proud...

douleur dans mon ame....sorrow in my soulll

I feel this agonizing pain in my heart,sadness has overshadowed the happiness I once felt,hate has taken over the love I once knew and laughter has turned into idle tears.These tears are from the depths of some divine despair that rise in my heart,I have been lying and thinking of how to find my soul a home!!!!a home it once had....so now I pray and meditate not giving up because I know that hope abides so therefore I abide .I am still alive ,these dark clouds will disappear,the morning sun will appear once again and happiness will overshadow sadness once again........

my secret crush

unexpectedly he breezed by unexpectedly our eyes met!!!!on the spot he took my breathe away,trying to catch it as i sipped on my juice trying my best to control my self and not act suspicious....thinking of how a human being can make your heart race so fast....he smiled at me & said hi i smiled back admiring this being created so beautifully...i had to come up with one of my plans & quick ....b4 i miss on this chance of what could be...what to do i thought to myself battling with my mind....in a state of confusion,blood rushing to my head...then i went blank
words cant describe this beauty he stands before me an infallible piece,defying perfection there i stair at him wishing i could have him .....dreaming of being with him....all this happening in split seconds....and then my worst fear... there she was ...he had a girl...i felt my heart being stabbed over and over then our eyes met & i geared at her with a thousand daggers...wishing he could be locked away with me to appease my most jealous heart....
there i stood my thought ,hopes & desires were slaughtered without mercy & with no plan,....i felt like i had died...i sat down unaccompanied with a trench of disbelief ,absorbing the brutal murder of my reality.....yes i know what you all are thinking!!!!!but in those few seconds i played out the future with him ,he was my reality for few seconds.....i hope i see him again,til then i will keep playing out my make belief reality in my head my secret crush....

reflection

not so used to sharing my feelings or thoughts with people but i cant bear it any longer its killing me.today,i started blogging because i am so tired of being alone,uncomfortable with myself,ugly,no one to talk to and lots more.i feel GOD has turned his back against me thus my misfortunes and bad-luck.
yes they say what goes around comes around.i have toyed with a lot of peoples hearts and heads feeling very special wit my self i guess that explains the loneliness path......
it started out as a fun thing to do but now its a habit,its like no one is good enough for me that's probably why i have never been in a relationship,this is what i cant explain........
over the years i have moved from good -OK-bad-worst;now i am at a point of no return,people assume that i do not have feelings because i hide them...the truth is i hurt inside everyday thinking,wondering what i have become , i am now at a point of no return....pondering on how i let it get s bad.....and what i feel this way...
i have been waiting my whole life on a ring to prove i am not alone....did i make a mistake or did i do the right thing?either way its too late another girl got the ring.....